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tentative return

2025 apr 2

what's new with the site?

• performed a site-wide tidy up;
• added new review: golden sun;
• added 13 new drawings to the sketchbook.

current main projects:

1. set up ocs profiles
2. digital sketchbook
3. weekly game journal entries

hello again all! as the title says, i am back ... perilously so, but back. i'll get more into that in the next section, but for now, let's talk about the site.

i haven't done much new, but i did go through basically every section & slightly re-arrange things, all mostly for clarity's sake. changed some language, added some navigation options ... that sort of stuff.
noteworthy changes are: i moved my webrings into the "affiliates" page, since it's felt empty & underutalized for a while, and i added a "curated" tag to my art page as a way of easing people into it, if they don't want to just browse through it in its entirety. besides that, it's all just been polish. there are so many parts of my website that have been left to cobwebs since i first made it, and i've been itching to get to work. i've been checking out a bunch of other folks' sites & getting inspired, so that's been helpful in flaming the fire ...

anyway, moving on.

what's new with me?

mentally, the changing of seasons has been an uphill battle for me ( summer hater here ) but i'm alright; more importantly, i'm physically feeling better! not perfect, but good enough to start drawing & doing light work on the site. typing is more painful than drawing, so don't expect a LOT of work being done around these parts ... but i'm going to try chipping away at stuff as i feel able to. :-)

speaking of drawing though ... you may notice a theme in the drawings i've been uploading. in a shocking turn of events, an old group of friends i've struggled to stay in contact with invited me to be part of a homebrew fire emblem ttrpg one of them made ... and i agreed!! me!!!! doing real-time roleplay!!!!! what has the world come to!
we've had one session & it was great. there are some folks in the group i don't know very well, but everyone is very nice & VERY good at roleplaying; all of them are old hands at ttrpgs, so they have great chemistry & know how to keep things moving. they're a funny bunch.
i am naturally insecure about being part of the group, but i'm hoping with time i'll get more comfortable with it lol ... i wrote soooo much about my character to try & understand them as best as i could, and i still got ooc & clumsy when it came to actually talking as them hahahahah. oh well. i'll figure it out.

i've been in an awful mental rut, which carried over from being with family around the holidays & took deeper hold during my lapse in physical health. i felt intensely alienated & alone & unworthy of anything. so ... being included in this game has been a huge boon for my brain. it's still difficult for me to not overthink social interactions, but i'm going to do my best to just deal with it & enjoy. i'm grateful to be included. ^_^

besides that? hummm ... still don't have a new oven; kept getting delayed so we just canceled it & are using two portable stovetops in its place. had some tornado "warnings" ( ~2% possibility ) in my region, which scared the crap out of me & i am hoping will not become a genuine reality for us in the coming years. partner got a new car, it's huge compared to our other one & i'm really sad about it for some reason? uhh, trying out some new eating techniques for our difficult kitties, so far kind of good. anything else ... ?

oh, for my birthday, my partner's parents bought me some very thoughtful gifts ( book about the history of game consoles & a really cute dish with a cat on it ) & cupcakes, which was overwhelmingly nice given my actual birthday was spent either dissociating or crying. my partner made us a nice dinner & fun cake later as well, so ... i really shouldn't complain ...

but yes. like i've been saying, i'm doing better & hopefully will maintain this upwards trend. i need to learn how to deal with the pain of the holidays for this year, because it has been consistently devestating to my mental health during a time of the year i'm otherwise happiest in.

for now, i continue to take it easy & heal, as agonizing as that can be. long entry, but it's been a bit i guess! have a good one everyone, and i'll see you later. :~)